towards the end of the break

exactly half of the break has gone..and i've only completed 1 out of 6 assignments i plan to finish during the break...maybe i'm lazy..or maybe the due dates are all long after the break finish..the nearest dateline is next saturday..and lizzy bah..lend me that book..big girls don't cry...i started it last night and it becomes the only thing i want to do plang..have fun reading it...plus..reading burns calories too right?

yeah i'm trying to lose some weight...erm..to be more specific..just want to lose one or two inches from my waist and arms..feel like i look big these days..although people around me keep disagreeing when i make that remark...if they want to convince me..they should try to work on my mind..not my body..

this afternoon i tried a few quizzes...one of the quizzes said i can tolerate with what others find intolerable...and then another one said i'm confident in myself so i won't get cheated easily..
last time a quiz said my worst shortcoming is nosy...so it occured to me that maybe i shouldn't be so interested to know about people's life story...although i don't do that for the sake of gossip..

i only realized it when i reached home yesterday that i forgot to give josh the nougat i wanted to give him..pun sia sia..
and i don't find myself guilty at all when bitching about uncle..

me and him..special in a way...like i told him last night..before we became couple, during the time we're in our relationship and till now we're not longer together, we are always there for each other..to cheer each other up...and i feel really good after chatting with him every night...although occasionally i'll think of our relationship and cry...i'll miss his company..especially weekend is approaching...
don't worry, if you are...i'm fine...i'm now in the process of adapting myself to single life...and from the look of it..things are going smoothly....perhaps i still rely on him a lot..but why can't i??
i hate to think he's not longer mine...sometimes i'll get overwhelmed by guilt..because feel like i'm making use of him...but everything takes time...i've already done the best i could...
my family still haven't found out...they don't ask..and i don't tell..although it's my personal problem..i still think i should acknowledge them...wait till i find an appropriate chance...and i'm sure i won't be affected by their questions..if they have any..