after shower...before dinner

feel a lot better today...in fact..yesterday was just like a dream...one of my moody days...
but jason was so sweet..he listened and comforted me..and also assure me that there's nothing wrong for me to be myself...so last night chat was basically all about my feelings...paiseh paiseh
and i was right...i wasn't considerate enough..and too self-centred....but no harm feeling so once in a while i guess..i'm not perfect...
i'm fine today...maybe because i don't expect anything from anyone....sometimes i don't take initiatives anymore..because i'm afraid of rejection...and whatever i don't do for other people, i won't make myself to expect them doing it for me...

had a nice time reading in the library just now before lunch time...i read a book titled 'Save the Panda'..it motivated me a lot...i also discovered a lot of interesting facts about panda...tempting me to work for a conservation unit next time...
it would be nice if people in brunei are as aware as people in china about their endangered animals..brunei too have a lot...like the clouded leopard, siamese crocodile, sea egret..so on...arowana is also one of the endangered species...but most people either don't care..or don't know...only a small percentage really go and do something about it...and hehe..in our environmental policy tutorial, we always criticized how slow is brunei's government...our country really needs a section that works on conservation....

talking about animals..finally~ i have puppies at my house...they're Cookie, Tina and Rachel...but i don't take care of them lah...usually my maid or my brother take care of them..i just give them a hand when i have free time and i'm not tired...
if there's anything i learn from my sis's marriage, it's the difficulty about having children and raise them up....for me..having a pet is like having my own kids...and i'm not that responsible for tht yet...but i like touching the dogs...

i'm afraid i'm getting the coughing back...hope no but my throat has been feeling irritating these few nights...

wonder is saturday sungkai jadi or not..i'll sms mimi later...i can't remember when's my last time having sungkai dinner with friends...hope lizzy them have a nice time...they're going out for sungkai i think...

how many times in a day we assume things and believe our assumption is the reality...

this saturday there's no practical..which make the weekend more free than usual...and makes me feel weird...but i think i have to get both animal and plant report done by this weekend..so i only have to prepare for the tutorial on envt. policy on monday...so eventhough nothing urgent to do..i still can't make myself relax..unless it's the long holiday...i'm restless sometimes..or most of the time...hmm..