finally finished with my sp essay...i was struggling while writing it because i had difficulty to write up to 2500 words...and i ended up with 2600+ words...usual case...
i got a feeling lizzy is not in brunei now..or else how come no reply from her for my sms...
i went to the beach with mimi and anna just now...first time going to the Penanjong beach...erm..the beach there is more 'primitive' than the Seri Kenangan Beach...but that's what makes it special..lots of natural features..and we saw a dangerous house..it was located right next to a sliding slope...looks as if it'll be washed down if there's a landslide occur...*touchwood
i felt like we're all so tiny when standing on the beach there...got a feeling like...i'm a small small girl in a big big world...
last night i forgot about the trip to the beach this morning..so i did my essay till quite late...but i managed to wake up and get ready earlier before anna picked me up...after i'm home..i started with my essay again...maybe too much stress on my brain..so felt headache...almost decline to go to i lotus with my family lor...
while in the end..i still went with them...well..a bit disappointed with their food...alright the food there is more special...got their unique style...but that's just the look..for me..the most important thing of a food is the taste...and the i lotus cook failed to impress me with the taste of the food...but the appearance and freshness of the ingredient are excellent though...i highly recommend the place to those couple who don't mind the food and want a romantic atmosphere..provided they have enough money in their pockets...
if it were before..i'd tell jason..dear..next time we go together ah...
don't worry swait zin..i'm fine...i know what i'm doing...i've been trying to cheer up eversince breaking up with him...now i just need to take a break...isn't that common for people who just lost their bf or gf?? they would enjoy the sadness jua...making themselves feel more depress than they actually are...i'm just going with the trend...
we both are unhappy..and we both know the immediate remedy is get back together...but we also know that the quick remedy is only temporarily effective...
i hate to think that me and him are going to become 2 parallel lines...
these days i feel listless...i just do what i need to do..just do my own things...try to avoid additional responsibility at home...in school...try to avoid anything that require me to move...
this is all transition period...i guess...i just lost interests in everything...i don't feel like to cook..don't feel like going out...not because can't find a companion or what...i just come to realize tonight that..it's because the person i used to do these things with has left me... but life still has to go on...i wish this mood can leave me as soon as possible...
i wish to have a long holiday so i can really spend time with myself..to do something i really want...haih...
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