staying up late

lizzy hope you're having fun in kl...mimi, happy raya..you bad old lady..still haven't replied my sms since evening...swait zin...take care, don't push yourself too much oh..

haih...

people've been telling me i've become chubby now..especially my face...this time i'm not worried..because whoever said that, the next sentence that came after that is 'but you look better this way'....for the first time..people pointed out to me that i was too thin...i mean.people beside mimi and lizzy...really wish to ask him one question..but he isn't online...

feel tired...been going out quite a lot..since thursday night...feel like i haven't rested for a long time...have to do the bio essay and chem revision..not in the mood for study today...

met jason today...for the first time after we broke up, we talked face to face for each other...although i talked more with sherman..the feeling..is..something i don't know how to put in words...relieved because i didn't cry...shed few drops of tears because we're no longer couple now...glad that we can talk to each other that way...sad because of the helplessness i feel..

i always forget to draw a line between boyfriend and friend...which end up hurting myself...still trying to live up to his standard...but slowly i'm coping with my single life...

the more i discover myself..the more i think i'm difficult to get along..

haih...

actually i should be feeling happy now..because..i've got myself a new pair of high heels slipper...bought myself 5 skirts altogether in just 2 days...altgether not even reaching $100..people compliment on my appearance...i've completed the computing project on time...people praise on my taste of clothing..i don't have to worry that i don't have new clothes for chinese new year..even have new baju for this raya...

the only way i should learn now is..stop looking at myself through jason's eyes i guess..