what a .... day

the presentation was ok...i wasn't as nervous as i expected...mainly because at that time my mind was preoccupied by wani's death..

wani was one of my classmates last semester in the genetic course...it's a huge shock when tek ying told me about her this morning..i know life isn't always predictable...also know that a person's life can be taken very easily...but knowing it and feeling it is completely different...for the first time i feel like..life is sooo fragile...
that's why i wanted to get over the presentation quickly...lost the mood to present...her face keep poping up in my mind...instead of those skulls i talked about..
but i control my emotions quite well...felt not so sad after few presentations...but when dr charles announced the news to us..it triggered my tears so bad...
the picture of me and her sitting in front of fos chit-chatting about her marriage..and at the fos foyer when she assured me about the field course....they are all still fresh and clear in my mind and now she's gone..forever...just before hari raya...
that's life....but this news makes me hesitate about having children next time...
choi!*

sorry lizzy...caused you to come back to tutong alone just now...i should've told you earlier that i planned for a shopping trip today...i was irresponsible to leave lizzy alone this afternoon..feel guilty when i was on my way back from tutong....but at that time..i was really reluctant to come home...wish to be surrounded by people...i feel like i abandon you lah...the guilt is in me...but i feel exhausted and erm...don't know...like no energy to do anything about it...
just finished forcing myself to finish the chem assignment..

recently..nothing attracts me...now..when i say i love my study...the sincerity in it is a question..haih..